Newbie mum alert!! I think i was anticipating my first mommy fail too much and it has arrived.
I’m not talking about spills, or putting baby clothes on the wrong way – I’m talking about those mommy fails that makes your heart drop and ALMOST call 911. I said almost, please don’t tell me I over react. Though I know I did quite a bit. I was panicking so much I cried a little bit. I’m not talking about a tear, I literally cried.
So, I’ve been a mom for (exactly) three months and nine days i think i was too confident this time around when I was grooming Kheira. Grooming her in a sense that, we were doing our normal afternoon routine; took a nice bath, getting her all dressed up and brushing her hair when I noticed a scratch on her face. Its the time of the week where her nails grew long enough to scratch her face and actually cut her with them.
Its not so visible in the picture. I took this one when it was already about to heal. She had 3 scratches; one on the right cheek, on her lil’ button nose and a long one along her left cheek (didn’t get to take a picture though, because it was the first one to heal). So the story goes on, as I badly needed to cut her nails already, I used the nail cutter that came from a gift set of baby grooming kit.
I’ve actually cut her nails using this particular nail cutter a few times already. I guess I just felt a lil confident. So this is me telling you guys NOT TO BE TOO CONFIDENT. EVER. NEVER. EVER. I feel absolutely horrible that, as I said, I cried.
I didn’t just nip a finger. I nipped two. Mommy guilt punched me hard in the face and I cried when she cried, which did not help. I kissed her little fingers to try to make things better – which surprisingly worked. My little champ was such a sport after I kissed her boo-boos she automatically loved me again ♥
Throughout the day every time I saw the lil’ cuts I made on her finger I would tear up. There it was again, Mommy guilt. It wasn’t Kheira who was crying, it was mommy. Let’s all keep in mind that, as a new mom, we will make mistakes. This one I’m not so proud of, because it was her first boo-boo and it was mommy’s fault! *hides behind hands* But at the end of the day everything is a learning process. Especially motherhood. I’m already twenty-four and my mum tells me that she’s still learning everyday. I’m now in her shoes and I couldn’t agree more.
More things to come, more things to learn! I’m scared, excited, ecstatic, anxious, and happy all at the same time! Oh the joy of motherhood! ♥
Be a blessing to others! xx